Pressure for Breakfast... Stress for Lunch...

I think I need another vacation. Well I have 3 projects staring me at my face and another one in the works... I haven't been having a diet of pressure and stress in a while so it's an experience that I have to get used to... Again...

Well all this work has rendered me sick again... I think I have used 4 sick leave days for the month of may. Maybe it's the weather, or maybe I'm just a bit stressed. Either way, its not healthy...But I'll get used to it, I guess... I have been here before after all.

I used to eat pressure for breakfast and stress for lunch haha. I guess my skills and experience will be tested again...

And yes... I'm raring to go at it again... Fight!!!!

Soliloquy of Sadness

For some reason... I feel sad today.... it's like there is this big black cloud hovering just above me...

Well work has been good so far... and I have been productive in my craft... I just feel that there is something missing that was there before...

Also, I feel like I don't belong anymore... dunno, maybe because it's just because of the absence from my peers... or something else....

I wonder if anyone would miss me if I'd be gone... sometimes I just want that affirmation that I am wanted... I am needed...

It seems that I am back on my Wandering days... Well I am the Wandering Knight of Solitude after all...

Summer is Over... Rainy Days are here again...

Oh well, the summer is finally over, and so are the out of town trips to boracay and puerto galera (for the moment). The rains have started falling, and the weather now is cooler albeit annoying (Think of the Traffic Jams).

It was good while it lasted. The hot sun, the cool waters, the white sand and the multitude of people walking alongside you at the coast. Not to mention the eye candy around as well. Lotsa Eye Candy (haha).

I also experienced a lot of peer bonding this summer. I got to see my friends almost everyday. I also got to see every aspect of their personality: their moods, their frustrations; what brightens their eyes or what sets them off. Especially during those out of town trips and the sleepovers. Whew!

Well looks like everything is settling back to normalcy. My mind isn't on vacation anymore (haha) and its time to focus my energies on these projects that were assigned to me. Somehow, the summer helped me overcome the burnout and have the zest to come back to the salt mines (aka work).

This summer was very memorable, and one of the happiest times (to date) that happened this year...


Till the next summer!

In Silence...

It has been a while since I have made any posts to my blog. Well, its just most of my time is occupied with work and friends that I rarely be alone with my thoughts. I guess that this is a good time as now to put most of my thoughts into writing.

The year 2005 has been a year of ups and downs for me. I got a new job and became good at it. Not to mention that I think that I would finally settle here for a long time to come. My social life however, has been another story. I thought that I would find someone I could call me own. A love that would always be beside me as we would take care of each other. But fate simply had other plans. Maybe there is someone out there that is really meant for me.

Then comes 2006, I feel like I'm starting over again. Making new friends and doing new stuff. And now I feel that I'm falling for someone all over again. We are as close as close can be. But I think that is someone else within that strong yet fragile heart of hers. Sometimes I want to tell her what I feel but I think that would turn her world into more chaos. I think she needs me more as a friend than anything more than that. And right now, I can live with that. As for how long, I do not know. But right now part of my personal goal is to see that she finds happiness in her life she so richly deserves...

So right now, I'm contemplating on my silence on these things... maybe until I reach clarity...