GimikNatin Inc.'s 1st Anniversary Party

Happy 1st Anniversary GimikNatin, Inc.

Here are some pictures of the event held last friday, August 26 at the Magellan Function Room, Discovery Suites.

The Party was a blast, as there were almost a hundred attendees. Although the attire was formal/smart casual, that didn't stop us from having fun. From Parlor Games, to Chatting with Friends, to Singing and Jamming with the Band playing at the event.

This goes to show you, whatever the attire, the place or the type of gimik, we guarantee that you will have fun!

Till Next Anniversary!

Bowling... Bowling... Bowling....

Had a chance to play bowling again... after a miserable average of just a shade below 100 (97 I think), I played two games where I had 155 and 129 pinfalls. I surprised even myself that time.

Me and my friends have been bowling since October of 2004, and even though I skipped attending sometime, Thursday evenings are always reserved as a bowling night. We usually play at Starmall, Shaw Boulevard. And I guess the people there know who we are because week after week we play up to 11pm (and even past 12 when everyone is in the mood... and have lots of cash in their pockets).

Bowling is really an addicting sport. You tend to challenge not only your opponents but yourself as well. You try to better your score with every game. We used to play for fun but we added some incentives such as the "loser pays for food" or pot money for every game. It is a bit competitive, but hey all our averages have gone up.

Me and My friends, invite you to bowl with us every thursday at StarMall, Shaw Boulevard. It is at the 4th floor. You can just ask where we are by asking the people who work there: "Asan mga taga- GimikNatin". Hope you could join us soon :D












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'Twas a Good Week (with some Detestable Moments)

This past week has been really good, although there were some bumps along the way and some annoyances but I guess other than that, I was pretty much in a good mood.

Work
Although there was not much work to be done this week, which comprised mostly of documentation and some testing, most of my office time was immersed into C# and Linux training; although the lessons were concise and comprehensive, the presentation leaves a lot to be desired. I think I fell asleep a few times (heh heh). And I think this was one of the few times that I have not been given any scrubdown by my superiors. I did a lot of contributions, however little in some of the projects that I was assigned in. And I really felt that my expertise and experience was needed for that kind of job. And I felt really glad about it. Looking forward for the next working day is a feeling that I haven't had in a very long time.

Friends & Social Life
Had spent lunch and dinner with someone I haven't seen in a long time (well, except on television I guess). We got joined by another friend, and the result was a riot. We were spending so much fun that my 1 hour lunch break became 2 and a-half hours. And even after work we were still at it, whether it be an internet cafe or in some eatery. I have also spent time with some of my friends who work in makati at a coffee shop near our offices. We just spend an hour or two sharing stories and drinking hot coffee. Except last friday as I was going to that same coffee shop, I person I truly detest dropped by to show up. I decided not to go instead. But all week, that was the only thing really that really ruffled my feathers. Next week though there maybe more plans to party!

Home and Family
Well nothing much new with home. My mom, well... is my mom. My niece though is still as annoying as ever. Always asking me to buy her a new phone. Sometimes I do want to. But there are times when she acts really like a spoiled brat which makes me think otherwise. Oh well, I would observe her again in a few months or so if she deserves it. I have nothing to do much at home except rest, watch TV and surf the net. I really have been active in the office so I wind down in front of my PC when I am at home.

Lovelife
Big fat EGG... what else is new. So I just spend my time pouring out my heart in writing. It feels good though, even if it is just in my mind. Sometimes it is fun to escape reality even for a few moments. It keeps me sane. Though I had dreams of watching her being married to someone else. I was forcing myself to wake for the first time (heh heh).

And so my voyage for this week has been written... tomorrow is a new day, and a new voyage...

My Ode to a Bronze Goddess

Flowing dark hair in the pale moonlight
Deep black pools as dark as the night
Intoxicating scent brings me to a trance
Gliding past my way in a graceful dance

Tanned Bronze skin that glistens in the light
I simply couldn't let her out of my sight
Melodic voice like the sirens I hear
Weakens my knees and drives me to tears

Standing from a distance here I stay
Watching my goddess from so far away
Frozen in time as I look into her eyes
Tearing the veil of hidden secrets and lies

Showing to the world how much she is strong
Cold and emotionless, how much they are wrong
Beneath that facade is a delicate flower
A lonely soul trapped in an endless tower

Here is the Goddess I protect and adore
Someone whom I'll give all my heart and more
She is the one who gives me my strength
When my morale is low and my body is spent

To the bronze goddess, I offer thee an ode
Grant that you keep it even at your abode
A poem I make for you, from deep within my heart
So even through my thoughts, we'd never be apart

On a good note!

Good Morning Everyone!

What a week... Full of ups and downs. I never felt that low in my life. It seems that every day something goes wrong within the workplace. And it also seems that I have been taking most of the flak with it. It made me re-assess my worth. I thought: "Am I really fit to be here? It looks like that everything I do seems to go wrong.".

Actually yesterday I felt that I was about to go to a major scrubdown but to my surprise everything went really well. Maybe I have been too hard on myself that I do blame myself every time. I guess this is just part of "growing pains" when you are in a new work environment. A guess in a few more weeks I would be truly settled here.

I guess things will get better from now on...

Food that Gets You in the Mood!

I was walking around the malls when I came across The Body Shop, and bought something there. It was about that time that a thought came to me. Well not as something to beautify your skin and hair, but about food. I suddenly remembered an article about this and I want to share it with you.

In ancient times, nutrition was a big concern. Poor nutrition affected both libido and fertility rates, and aphrodisiacs were sought out to not only remedy sexual anxiety or inadequate performance, but to increase fertility.

Foods that, by their nature, represented seed or semen, such as bulbs and eggs, were considered inherently to have sexual powers. Other types of foods were considered stimulating because of their physical resemblance to genitalia. In fact, aphrodisiac foods have been documented as early as the first century A.D. by the ancient Greeks.

Chocolate
The Aztecs and Mayans were the first to recognize the potency of chocolate, celebrating the harvest of the cacao bean with festivals of wild orgies. The Aztec ruler, Montezuma, reportedly drank 50 cups of chocolate each day to better serve his harem of 600 women (not all at once, I assume). You know what's tastiest under a drizzle of warm chocolate sauce? Skin. 

Asparagus
The ancient "Law of Similarities" said that if one thing looks like another, it will improve what it resembles. As a phallic symbol, asparagus proves size doesn't matter! See if your lover can control himself when you lick Hollandaise sauce off individual spears and then nibble them one at a time.   

Grapes
Marc Anthony wooed one of the most captivating women in the world with grapes (no, not J-Lo -- Cleopatra!), peeling each one and feeding her the individual juicy orbs. If you want to serve your lover grapes, lie down and place them one at a time in your navel.

Pine Nuts
These delicate, buttery nuts have been known to stimulate the libido since the second century. We now know they contain lots of zinc, a key mineral in the production of testosterone. You can bake them in cookies, or use them to make pesto. Or simply sprinkle a trail of pine nuts on your lover's body, and nibble your way home.

Honey
From the Kama Sutra to the Bible, honey has been connected with love, sex and sensuality. Ancient Egyptian remedies for sterility and impotence were based on honey. And of course the "honeymoon" is based on a Medieval tradition of newlyweds going into seclusion and drinking mead, a fermented drink made from honey until the first new moon of their marriage. Lipstick is icky but honey is yummy. Smear your lips with honey and give your lover a luscious kiss.

Vanilla
The scent and flavor of vanilla is believed to increase lust. According to the myths of the ancient Mexican Totanac culture, Xanat, the young daughter of the Mexican fertility goddess, loved a Totonac youth. Unable to marry him due to her divine nature, she transformed herself into a plant that would provide pleasure and happiness forevermore. You'll find lots of pleasure in a small carton of vanilla ice cream. Drop cool spoonfuls on warm skin, and lick the drips as it melts.

Libations
Alcoholic beverages have served throughout history as a basis for most love potions, masking the foul tastes of bizarre ingredients. Of course now we know a glass of wine, or a smooth cocktail relaxes us, lowers inhibitions and stimulates our senses. Try a Margarita you'll never forget. Sprinkle some salt on your lover's neck, and have him hold a wedge of lime in his teeth. Lick the salt from his neck, drink a shot of very smooth tequila and have him squeeze the lime in your mouth. Oh-lay.

Oysters
These seductive mollusks have been documented as an aphrodisiac for two thousand years. Glistening on the half-shell, with delicate petals of tender meat, is it any wonder they look sensually familiar? They also happen to be loaded with zinc, a key ingredient to testosterone production. In any case ladies, if your lover loves oysters, you're in luck! Tuck a pearl in your oyster, and let him go diving.

Every Little Thing...

Now here is a song I haven't heard in a while. It kinda brings back memories (heh heh). In the last year how many times I have heard this. I missed hearing it. It is a song first sang by the Police, in their album "Ghost in the Machine" (I even bought this CD when I was in Japan). It was also revived into an acoustic version, by our very own local band M.Y.M.P (Make Your Momma Proud). Well truly, "Every Little Thing She Does is Magic".

Though I've tried before to tell her Of the feelings I have for her in my heart Every time that I come near her I just lose my nerve As I've done from the start Every little thing she does is magic Everything she does just turns me on Even though my life before was tragic Now I know my love for her goes on Do I have to tell the story Of a thousand rainy days since we first met It's a big enough umbrella But it's always me that ends up getting wet Every little thing she does is magic Everything she does just turns me on Even though my life before was tragic Now I know my love for her goes on I resolve to call her up a thousand times a day And ask her if she'll marry me in some old fashioned way But my silent fears have gripped me Long before I reach the phone Long before my tongue has tripped me Must I always be alone? Every little thing she does is magic Everything she does just turns me on Even though my life before was tragic Now I know my love for her goes on

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Sea of Void...

Floating, in a sea of blackness
My soul reduced to nothingness
As I stare off in the distant sky
Wishing that I could really fly

Drained, as a glass overturned
The essence of my being totally burned
Falling into a bottomless hole
In despair that I'll never be whole

Frozen, like an artic storm
Feeling pain like I'm being torn
Chilled to the bone I am feeling cold
I feel so alone with no one to hold

Empty, I am nothing but a shell
I feel moving closer to death's knell
I leave this world of loneliness
As I shimmer into a sea of nothingness

Just felt empty today... I dunno. Something has changed. Incomplete? Lonely? Maybe? I just feel a big black void (redundant, isn't it) within me. Or maybe I should put return values in the functions that I make instead of declaring them void (hehe). Seriously, I am empty. Like everything has been drained out of me. Oh well I just have to wait and see. And live by the adage, "Hope for the best and expect the worst". I'll just move along where life takes me.

Silver Lining

Just seeing her comely face Ever the depths of her soul I see Never I have seen such loveliness Nor I have ever seen such grace I was blessed to meet one such as she Forever I will keep in my heart Every waking moment spent with her Remembering her image burned in my mind I have mistaken her for a divine being Living among us, an angel from heaven Life in her presence makes it sweeter Up in the clouds I feel my heart soar She is beautiful both inside and out Tough and strong, yet gentle and sweet Right in the midst of mortals like me Every woman's inspiration and every man's dream

Ten Interpretations to a Happier Life

Stress affects all of us and can show its manifestations in various
forms. We cannot avoid it altogether, but what we can do is follow some of
these hints to reduce stress from our lives. Here is a list of ten
quotations and how we can interpret these to experience a happier and
stress free tomorrow.

1) Cry a river; build a bridge; get over it.

Let go of past failures, sadness and people whom we remember but who no longer care for us. This sounds so easy but its easier said than done. We all have gone through our share of heartaches and sadness. But when we constantly remember the pain and suffering we had endured, we are allowing that sadness to gain an upper hand over us. What we must realize is that what has happened has happened. Its over and done with. People change and times change. Moving on in life is very difficult but its the first constructive step to a better you.

2) Everything happens in its own time.

There are things that we do and expect to be rewarded for which does not happen. In offices, there might be a promotion that we might have wanted, a high score on a test, or a job offer that we were sure that was to be given to us that never worked out. At such times we lose perspective and blame our luck and become despondent. We need to realize that there is a time for everything that happens in our lives. And when the appropriate time comes, things will start working the way they were supposed to work.

3) You are the only person who can make yourself happy.

Think of "your" happiness, too, and be kind to yourself. In life, all of us have goals and ambitions. But in the pursuit of those goals, we lose sight of the bigger picture that we are doing these things to make ourselves happy. This is seen especially in the case of mothers who are doing so many things for their kids and family that they don't remember when the last time was that they did something for their own happiness.

It happens to all of us. Be gentler with yourself. Make yourself happy, and that can be done in so many ways. Treat yourself to some ice cream, buy a book that you were dying to read, spend a day lolling in the bed doing nothing. We deserve it and so do our bodies.

4) Laughter is the best tranquilizer with no side effects.

Laugh each and every day of your life. Humorous situations happen to us every single day. Whether you choose to enjoy the moment or not is your decision. There are so many excuses in our day-to-day life to have a good laugh. All we need to do is just look at the lighter side of life and enjoy the moment. When you laugh, don't think whether people are watching you or how much you laugh. It's their problem that they cannot find the humor in the situation that you have found.

5) Happiness is a journey, not a destination.

As we make our journey through life, we have so many things to savor and experience. There is no such thing as instant happiness or happiness that can be found somewhere. Live your life each day, the same way you would climb a mountain. An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind, but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each new vantage point.

6) Do today what others won't so you can live tomorrow like others can't?

So many times we are faced with duties and work that we are not happy doing or performing. In those times, instead of hating or shirking from that work, we can try and make use of the thought that somehow, whatever we are doing will prove beneficial to us one day or another. Maybe the results won't be seen tomorrow, but surely we will benefit because we did something that no one was willing to do. An example would be the people who started companies which are million dollar establishments today. They dared to venture and put their money in something that their colleagues would not have been willing to do, and today their work is paying off rich dividends.

7) It is never too late to be what you might have become.

There are several factors that cause us to end up doing the work we do. Many of us, at some point of time, would have definitely wanted to make a career change and thought that it's too late to do it. But the truth is it's never too late. You can start doing whatever we want to do because it's your life and your decisions. Think of the people who attend college in their late 60's and 70's because they always wanted to do it. Such people are the ones who truly believe in this adage.

8) Treasure the love you receive; it will survive long after your gold and good health have vanished.

We always seem to cherish our material possessions more than we should. But life can take a lot more from us. Today we might have good health, family love and a good home to go back to. What we forget is that there are so many calamities that can take away all our comforts, but love is something that can never be taken away. We need to be more demonstrative of our love towards others and treat our loved ones with more kindness and affection.

9) The journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step.

Any huge task that needs to be done seems very daunting at first. But if we analyze the task carefully, and do it step-by-step, we will find that things get resolved very quickly and easily. But we need to be bold enough to take the first small step. Once that is done, we just need to proceed with additional small steps towards our goal.

10) Always have something to do, something to love, and something to hope for.

These three things are what will keep the flame burning within all of us. Something to do will keep us busy, something to love will keep us motivated and something to hope for will take us faster towards our goal.

My Skills (*ehem*)

Had nothing to do in the office after finishing a ton of work in the morning. Just decided to loosen up a bit and do some nonsense (haha!)

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Flirting Skill Level - 25%
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Why They Hate You	You talk too much.
This fun quiz by lady_wintermoon - Taken 2969649 Times.

You on my Mind!

I'm having another last song syndrome again. This time it's a song from SOS (Swing Out Sister), entitled "You on my Mind". I have been singing this song over and over as I have been modifying my code and making stored procedures. Jeez... even now I'm humming it again and again...

Friends say I'll get over you soon Thoughts of you come back to fill me with gloom Time forgets but I'm not over you yet There's no sense of asking why Until the tears run dry There's no one but you on my mind Serching for a perfect ending that we'll never find If we could make it work this time Years have flown by since you've been gone This broken heart of mine's been waiting too long All alone wihout you I can't carry on There's no sense of asking why Until I'm there by your side There's no one but you on my mind Searching for a perfect ending that we'll never find If we could make it work this time We could plant tomorrows Dreams now together In a garden to last forever more All the flowers would grow From the seeds we'd sow... There's no one but you on my mind Searching for a perfect ending that we'll never find If we could make it work this time There's no sense of asking why Until the tears run dry I could be there by your side If you would only change your mind If we could make it work this time.

50 Things About Me! (Part II)

More tidbits about myself. Which means, more stuff to laugh about (Part II). To read the first part, click here

26. I can't blow a balloon from a bubblegum (how pathetic).

27. I'm obsessed with completing my phonebook with all details, including Surname, E-mail Addresses, Thumbnail Images, and Birthdays.

28. My favorite snack is Granny Goose Tortillos (dipped in spaghetti meat sauce).

29. I had Ernie and Bert (of Sesame Street) Stuffed Toys when I was a kid.

30. I played Benjamin in our School Musical play, Cam Floria's (Joseph) "The Dreamer". I won artist of the year in school because of this.

31. I'm a survivor. I once lost my financial stability, my self-esteem and my dignity due to some stupidity and a gold digging ex-girlfriend. Yet I'm still here, and better than ever.

32. I'm very good at C programming; whether it be C, C++ or C#.

33. My favorite color is BLUE.

34. I was an OPM band die hard during the 90's. I used to listen to the music of Eraserheads, Rivermaya (bamboo era), Parokya ni Edgar, Yano, Afterimage... and so on and so forth.

35. I don't detest eating liver, but I'm not too thrilled about eating it as well.

36. I love writing poems, check my other blog: Sleepless in Makati.

37. My mobile phone is a Nokia 6230. I plan to upgrade to a newer phone though.

38. I have been to Palawan numerous times, but for some reason, any attempt I made to go to Boracay goes awry (that really sucks!). But Hey! Club Noah is the Best!

39. At my age, I still use Johnson's baby powder after each bath. Laugh all you want but that is who I am.

40. My all time favorite song: "Till they take my heart away", by Clair Marlo.

41. My all time favorite movie: "The Cutting Edge". (I'm sappy, so sue me!)

42. I own a Voltes V toy (now mangled due to wear and tear). I had it when I was only 5 years old. Not many have this.

43. My greatest attempt at having a political career was winning a position in the student council (1995). Politics is really dirty, on every level.

44. My favorite numbers are 4 (I won most contests being the 4th contestant), 12 (I was an Yves Dignadice fan so I used it when playing with my officemates) and 67 (This number is creppy for me. My employee number during my first job is APTi-0067. My local number here was 6067. When I was undergoing AOTS training in Japan, my number is 9716067. And now here at my new job, my Associate number is S1767. Hmmmmm, Lucky I guess, but there is no 67 in Lotto!).

45. I love olives, whether it be black or green. Love to eat it when serving caldereta or callos.

46. In my life as a student, I got 11 medals (7 gold, 1 silver, 3 bronze), 2 trophies (1st & 3rd place), and 16 certificates.

47. My YM id is silverknightonin.

48. I am a member of three Gimik Forums: Gimik Natin, Inc., Manila Tonight.Com, and HoOkUp.PH. I use the same handle: Sir Galahad®.

49. I am friends with the very bubbly model of the PLDT 10 peso/call ads, Ms. Jennifer Illustre.

50. When I fall in love, I get blind-sided with what goes around me... Simply put, she becomes my world.

Silky Smooth

I met this band around June of last year, got introduced to them by a common friend Jennifer Illustre (Vanilla Girl and PLDT Spokeperson/Model), she being a former member of the band. We were at Friends El Pueblo that time and it was really jampacked. It was ladies night that time and there were a lot of women around (ha! ha!). We were presented with three ladies: Kat (who was standing in for the sick Caroline), Mae and Yasmin; who were performing their hearts out to the delight of the crowd. Once again, I was yanked into the stage to sing along with them. It was a wednesday so there was work tomorrow. But nevertheless, we went home at two in the morning.

We got a taste of the full ensemble when we watched them at Chef & Brewers in Ortigas. And hey, most of the group got so addicted that we were watching them week after week after week. Hell, I was partying everyday during that period.

So what is Silk. Silk is one of the leading cover bands in the Philippines today. They perform songs from different groups like Swing Out Sister, Everything but the girl, The Corrs and a whole lot more. They seem to be Eighty-ish. But who am I to complain, I grew up with those songs.

The silk frontline is now composed of Caroline, Mae and AJ, since Yasmin quit the band for a higher calling (marriage?). They are still at it and you can watch them in different bars around.

More Power

This is for you...

Whenever

Whenever you're feeling blue, And there's nothing else to do No need to stop and stare You know I'll always be there Whenever you're feeling down Your face marred with a frown A silly verse I will sing Maybe a smile to you I bring Whenever you need to rant Those things you never want I'll lend a sympathetic ear All your problems I will hear Whenever you're feeling cold Neither cloth nor blanket to hold Let you stay within these arms To keep you safe from harm Whenever you are feeling happy Feeling giddy, or even sappy The best smile, to you I show "I'm happy too", to let you know Whenever you want to rage Like a monster out of its cage You can come to me and vent Until you are all tired and spent Whenever you are in doubt Not sure to utter from your mouth I could help with sound advice To sieve the truth from the lies Whenever you are in tears Your face showing all your fears You have my shoulder to cry on To show you, "You are not alone" Whenever your heart needs a home You'll never ever be alone No matter what the gods may say Beside you, I'll always stay

"This poem is dedicated to the person closesto my heart right now. I just want you to know, no matter what you say or argue about it... You were never alone, never still and never will be!"

Loss...

I am writing about this because someone close to me has lost something so valuable. It is not about the price of the object in question, but about the contents of it. Sometimes we put a lot of effort in some thing, but a loss of that means that everything we put into that has gone to waste. I remember tireless downloading a multitude of stuff on my pc and then losing ALL of it when my hard disk crashed. All I could do was shake my head... SAYANG!

I lost a lot in my life, I even reached the lowest point in my life because of that loss. I invested and put my heart into something that had suddenly just disappeared. It was really heartbreaking. I even remembered the date: May 6, 2003. I have lost a lot, my financial stability, my dignity, friendships with other people, and my self-esteem. All that I got in exchange for... NOTHING! This loss set a big blow to my life which made me think if it is still worth living.

It's been over two years. And it looks like I'm back to normal again. That loss has taught me a lot of lessons: Know what is and isn't for keeps; and do everything possible not to lose anything that is worth keeping. And with that loss, I found out that I have much more to gain in this world... much much MORE!

"You are for keeps, you know!"

"Sometimes, when you lose something, it means that there something better that you would get in return."

Makati City on a Sunday

I have been a Makati City resident since I was brought into this world. I saw the changes that happened as I grew up here. I remember the QUAD Theathers, SM Makati, the old Food court, and Greenbelt. Now there is Glorietta (in place of Quad), SM Makati has grown twice in size, there are food courts in every mall, and Greenbelt has now 2 & 3. A lot has changed, but somehow they are still the same.

I also work in Makati. My office is at PBCom Tower along Ayala Avenue. And during work days, I see the hustle and bustle of the people as they go to and fro doing about their business. To a person who is new here it is kind of overwhelming. Me? Well I kind of enjoyed watching the busy people. It somehow makes makes the city feel alive.

You should also see the business and entertainment district during the evening. You see people winding down and relaxing as they gather in coffee shops, restaurants and bars. Sometimes it looks more alive at night.

I just came back from the malls this noon... This is the time where the City isn't that much active, and just crusing home I seemed to have noticed the beauty of the City. The buildings, the trees and the road. They somehow look ordered, neat and clean. I was awed what was around. Somehow, this is comparable to the cities I were in when I was abroad.



I love this City and I'm really proud of it!

How can I?

I'm having a last song syndrome again. I got hold of an old song, "How can I?". I think most of you knew that this was sang by Lea Salonga during the 90's, but actually was part of Martin Nievera's album "The Best Gift". I'm posting the lyrics here for your enjoyment, and maybe if you remember the tune, sing along with it.

HOW CAN I?
Martin Nievera
(Ryan Cayabyab)


How can things go wrong
When you're here with me
All of time and space would stop
They'd stop for you and me

How can we go wrong
We're like words within a song
Perfect rhyme and perfect time
And perfect harmony

Now our words have lost their way
And all they seem to say
You don't intend to stay with me
Tell me why
When we have come this far
We're happy as we are
But now

How can I feel right
When you're not by my side
Strange that I'm here all alone
As I recall the happy times
The happy songs, the perfect rhymes
How can I go on
How can I move on
How can I, how can I
Without you

Now our words have lost their way
And all they seem to say
You don't intend to stay with me
Tell me why
When we have come this far
We're happy as we are
But now, now

How can I feel right
When you're not by my side
Strange that I'm here all alone
As I recall the happy times
The happy songs, the perfect rhymes
How can I go on
How can I move on
How can I, how can I, how can I

Whatta day!

I guess my debugging skills didn't fail me once again. We had a problem with one of our JSP's since last friday, and I was almost out of my wits that time. But I guess sometimes your brain acts in the most unexpected of places. I was eating in the pantry when a solution came to me. And with the solution comes the verification. I think I tested the whole afternoon. Even our american counterpart was still awake... I think around 5AM their time. But hey, we finally made it work... Whew!

I was also slated to watch a movie today. But again, the rains ruined my day. I was stranded in makati the whole time, so I decided to go to glorietta to shoot some hoops. Yup I shot hoops at Time Zone the whole evening. And I am way exhausted even to stand.

So I sit here, surfing the net and other stuff, cooling down for the night. My day was bittersweet. But hey, it happens. At least my day wasn't completely down.

Maybe tomorrow, things would look better, especially that it's payday. Whoopeee!

I'm a Hopeless Romantic...

I've been channel surfing a while ago until I saw a movie that I have not seen in a long time. The Parent Trap, a disney remake which starred then-eleven year old Lindsay Lohan. It's kind of sweet, two children trying their hardest to put their parents back together again. It was a happy ending, which is why I watched it several times (I lost count) when I was in Japan.

Another of my favorite movies is the Cutting Edge, which starred D.B. Sweeney as Doug Dorsey, person who lost his career due to a blind side problem; and Moira Kelly as a figure skater who never had it going. It was a love hate relationship between the two with the undercurrents of attraction between them. In the end, they got together, bringing with them the olympic gold medal. It is a very funny story, some flirting and lighthearted moments. It's a feel good movie you would enjoy again and again.

I think I'm showing my soft side again (haha!). Who would expect, me watching those kind of movies...

I'm a hopeless romantic... so sue me

The Man of La Mancha

You know what, I should be talking of the stuff below:

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But I guess the softer, creative, sentimental side of my brain is dominating my cold, calulating one. I seem to be a lot more philosophical, or even contemplentative during the middle of the night. Must be the weather though (heh heh) I was thinking of what happens to the world today. It seems that most people are on the pessimistic side, thinking the glass half empty rather than half full. And I see a lot of cynics nowadays. Looks like everybody wants to be the devil's advocate. It's hard not to disagree because I am turning into a cynic myself. A very bad one. I often think in my solitude that bad things are happening as well as about to happen not just in my life but also with the world around me.



As I was browsing the net, I came across Don Quixote, the man from La Mancha. In the story many think of him as a man with delusions of grandeur (hence the term "Quixotic") that he is out to save the world and rid it of its evil. He is so obsessed with tales of knights and chivalry that he decided to be a knight-errant himself. With his driving force, Dulcinea del Toboso and his horse Rocinante, he Journeys far and wide, with his squire, Sancho Panza.

Don Quixote is visibly crazy to most people. He believes ordinary inns to be enchanted castles, and their peasant girls to be beautiful princesses. He mistakes windmills for oppressive giants sent by evil enchanters. He was chasing a dream, some would say, and Sancho would accompany him only because there may come a time that they would become lucky and get rich. Through the course of the story their characters develop. It was a tragic ending, with Don Quixote on his deathbed deciding what he did was madness, and Sanzo Pancha still urging him to go on. He never did find his dream, but sometimes the journey becomes more important than the destination sometimes.

Sometimes, reading gets you into perspective. Sometimes when you think you want to give up, you get reminded otherwise. Sometimes it is important to re-evaluate your self as you grow, so that you get things in order, to do what you want and get what you want. I used to see the world as black and white. But as I grew I see shades of gray. Maybe its time to chase that star, no matter how impossible, hopless and far. And just maybe I would do all that as go meet my Dulcinea.

It's a dream... it's a start... soon, it could be reality...

(Hmmmm another story of knights... maybe I am obsessed too of being a knight myself heh heh)

50 Things You Should Know About ME! (Part I)

1. I'm Catholic. It would be really hard, almost impossible to convert me to another.

2. I'm an internet addict (I think most people are). I would even be connected to the net even if I am asleep.

3. I am a technical person through and through. Even I get a job that requires me to handle people 40 hours a week, that would not stop me from digging into the technical aspect of a certain project.

4. I spent around 70% of my leisure time ALONE. Maybe its because I am a loner at heart, or maybe no one wants to go out with me (huhuhuhuhuhu...)

5. I am a Rockman X/Megaman X fan. I even completed all the video games of that series. I even research it on the net.

6. I sleep 5 to 6 hours of sleep daily during weekdays. But I could sleep the whole afternoon during weekends.

7. I love spaghetti. If I was invited to a feast and spaghetti is on the table, that would be the first one that I would put on my plate.

8. I only eat fat if the dish is Lechon or Porkchop. If you give me a piece of pork barbecue I would eat it except for the fat portion.

9. I was a member of the choir during high school and I love to sing. Sure I could carry a tune but let us just leave it as that.

10. I can speak, read and write Japanese/Nihongo. I have a level 3 profiecieny which I use when watching Japanese animation (he he he).

11. I am a Mapuan, not a Malayan (CoE October 1996)

12. In all the years of my life, I have still sported the same hairstyle (I'm boring)

13. I lost my virginity at 19. It really isn't a big deal but I just wanted to state a fact :P

14. I can fix my own neckties (novelty skill)

15. I am ambidextrous in most ways although most of the time I use my left hand. I use my right hand when using scissors, can openers and spoons.

16. I'm a sci-fi nut: Star Wars, Star Trek (Voyager is my favorite), as well as anything space related.

17. Superman will always be first and foremost, my ideal superhero.

18. I'm a hopeless romantic (sigh!)

19. Sharon Cuneta was my first childhood crush (bwahahahahaha).

20. I love Japanese food. So anybody for Sushi, Sashimi, Soba?

21. I wanted to be an astronomer when I was young.

22. I hate pretenders, posers and people who are sickly sugary sweet but in reality they have a very unpleasant personality.

23. I love basketball whether it be playing or simply watching. My favorite players include Shaquille O'neal (foreign) and Danny Ildefonso (local)

24. I also love medieval stuff from games to reading materials. Warcraft, Lord of the Rings, La Morte d' Arthur (King Arthur and the Knights of the Round Table).

25. My handle is Sir Galahad®. It's either that or any other handle that are related to knights and chivalry. Maybe the reason for that is Sir Galahad was the Perfect Knight and Gentleman (he also found the grail afaik). Or maybe I want to be that perfect knight for my princess (even though princes are for princesses).

Good guys can finish first...

I remember the saying, "Good guys finish last". When you look around, you see that most people reach the top by being crafty, or cunning. A person who is said to be a goody-two-shoes can't make anything happen. Heck, most of the girls I know want to be with "bad" boys, whether it be looks or attitude. Maybe because a good guy is said to be boring, and non-mysterious. Take the case of Superman and Batman. Superman is type of person who dons primary colors, rescues cats stuck in trees, saving the lives of even the villains as well. Batman, on the other hand, has a very dark persona. An avenging angel, and lots of attitude. In terms of popularity, of course batman is hands down, the more popular of the two.

But given the aftermath of the recent NBA Finals, I saw a good guy win over the bad boys. Tim Duncan of the San Antonio Spurs, a man known to be quiet even the most intense of times, NBA's all around good guy, and thus the reason he called boring by many. But with his hard work and perseverance, he led his team against the NBA's resident bad boys, the Detroit Pistons. He even won the Finals MVP. A double victory for the good guy...

Maybe, just maybe, I can win after all...

Rainy, Rainy Friday...

Just got home... Soaked to the bone... It's a friday, and it's raining. Which means I have nowhere to go but stay home.



I love rain... I really do. I love to watch the raindrops as they fall down, making a splash shaped like a miniature crown. I love the smell of leaves when it rains. And its the best time to cuddle when it's fairly cold outside.

But not like this. I also got stranded on the way home because of the traffic. Somehow, everything seems to slow down when it rains, except time that is. The next thing you know its almost an hour, and you are still outside, battling with out with the rest of the population, cold, hungry and trying to get home as well.

Well I'm home and dry... and watching the rain.... rain is really good... maybe I can use that as an excuse to cuddle somebody :)

Clothes Make the Man... or maybe not

I wore something different at work today. Something that I was not really used to in a very long time. A three piece suit. There were visitors in the office that day, our U.S. counterparts. So I guess looking formal that time is a must. But something happened... somehow I had more enthusiasm working today. I guess sometimes looking good can have very profound effects.

I remember the TV series, "The greatest American hero". Here we have an ordinary guy finding a supersuit by accident, and found out that he could do great and heroic things. Maybe in my case it was the same, albeit psychologically.

Then my thoughts moved to policemen, nurses and other uniformed personnel. Maybe it helps them perform better when they are in uniform... hmmmm.

Maybe it was the clothes, or maybe it was just me having a good day at work... In either case, maybe I should look formal a lot more...



... Or maybe not (heh heh heh)

Life at 29 years...

"I feel like starting over again..."

Yes, I am 29 years old, but with what happened in the few years of my life, I feel as I have been given a second wind. And I promise to not squander this chance anymore.

I was said to be a "menopause baby". I was born when my mom was 42 years old. They said that babies born during this period may end up abnormal or may end up a child prodigy. I was neither... I was simply an average guy with a sponge for a brain (that is what they say). And I even learned how to talk before I could walk.

I grew up like any ordinary kid. Went to Grade School, had been competitive. Went to High School, had been competitive (again). But it was in college that I have broadened my horizons from the four corners of the room. I was not as competitive as before but I was happier.

Then came my first job. I was employed in a Japanese company and was enjoying the rewards of my work. Yet as I wanted to move up and search for greener pastures, I have been jumping to and fro looking for a job where I could settle down. It was kind of rare for me, after spending 6 years with my first job.

I was at the top of the world that time, succesful and stable. Then I met someone. Someone who turned my world around in more ways than one. My folks never wanted her in the first place. But being in love (or so I thought), I continued to rebel against them. Then I found out I was falling. She left me for another and I found myself on the ebb of despair, my life torn to shreds. That was 2003, 2 years ago. Athough I have forgiven her for her betrayal, I would never forget what happened, nor allow it to happen again.

2004 was a banner year for me. I have crawled out from that shadow she cast out and I was totally free. It was a good feeling. I started rebuilding my life again brick by brick and the future looks bright as well.

The best year I had was 2001. I only hope that sometime in the future, I would reach that level again.

"I really am starting over again... Wish me luck!"

The Continuing Voyage

Its been a while since I have posted anything on the blog. Maybe because of the transition I'm going through (New Job, etc), I haven't had the time to place an entry here... So where do I start.

Well work has been great. None of that overworked and underpaid crap that had gone on when I was still working at that previous company. Maybe in a few months I would finally be settled here.

I haven't seen her for a while, maybe weeks, and when the time came that we would meet and do something, fate had other plans... Oh well, all I wanted to do was to see her and spend some time with her... I'm pathetic ain't I hahahahahaha.

As for home, my mom is sick. Although we still don't know depending upon the check-ups, I just hope she gets better soon. Please pray for her.

It's time for this solitary knight to go off his voyage... You will see more of my exploits in this journey book.

Bye for now...
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One Year...

Was it by chance or was it fate
Was meeting you made by destiny
Are you to be my soul's mate
And share my life till eternity

Or simply just a passing soul
That the heavens sent this way
Who changed me and made me whole
A reason to smile for everyday

Once I was a doll thats broken
On the lowest ebb of dark despair
But like an angel from heaven
Part of her life she gave to share

Toward the winding road of life
She beckons me with tears that shed
To go against the greatest strife
And see the clear path ahead

Opening up and sharing her soul
To see her life, joys and pain
I ached as well to make her whole
Giving a purpose wanting to gain

It's been such an eventful year
Since the first word from our lips
A stronger bond we have none to fear
I have found someone for keeps

Fate may have other things in mind
Maybe our paths from here will rend
Or someone else we need to find
Bonds to build and bridges to mend

Whatever may happen to us after
Meeting you, I am eternally grateful
I may not have you for everafter
For a time, I had someone beautiful.

Some things are not just meant to be...

Have you ever wanted something so bad that you even dream of it or create your fantasy world where everything is as you wished. So bad that you even cry at night fearing it would never come to pass. I have, and I guess it would remain a fantasy throughout.

Maybe I should snap out of it... "These things aren't meant for you, they never were, since day one. "

Maybe soon... I would come to accept it, but for now, I would carry a torch even for a little while more...

The Promise...

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Say goodbye?
When I can barely say goodnight
When I can hardly take my eyes from yours
How far can I go?

Walk away?
The thought would never cross my mind
I couldn't turn my back on Spring or Fall
Your smile least of all

When I say always
I mean forever
I trust tomorrow as much as today
I am not afraid to say I love you
But I promise you
I'll never say goodbye

We're dancers
On a crowded floor
while other dancers leave from song to song
Our music goes on

On and on
And if I never leave your arms
I really would have traveled everywhere
For my world is there

When I say always
I mean forever
I trust tomorrow as much today
I am not afraid to say I love you
And I promise you
I'll never say goodbye

DIS Team: Happy days are over?

Well, here is the development team that has been together for the past two months... even though the group is about to break apart... friends pa rin kami...

SEE YOU GUYS PAG MAY GIMIK TAYO!!!! MAY 19... Let's Mark This one!

Moving On...

2004 has been a very good year for me. I had a great job, I recovered from one of the greatest disasters that was my lovelife (Imagine 10 months of pining for someone who not only fooled you, but never loved you at all... boy was I blind). But again, its time to move on. This is my last week at SMITS. And pretty soon I will be moving to another company... I guess the only thing constant in life is change. I dunno what awaits me in the future, but I would face the challenges ahead...

Not Another Poem...

Maybe its because of the low morale I have at work, or that I am about to switch jobs, or maybe its because of a very sad message I got... I was driven to write another one of my literary disasters.. hahahaha. Hope you guys don't mind me being cheezy :)

This Poem is untitled as of this writing... can't think of an appropriate one. How 'bout supplying one ;)

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Standing from a corner, I watch her from afar
A graceful princess is she, who dwells among the stars
Giving friendly smiles as she rests upon her seat
As she turns toward me, my heart skips a beat

I gaze upon her face, as if drawn to a trance
To say what's in my heart, if I am given the chance
Yet beneath that smile, I see a sadness within
I see it in her eyes, to whatever lies therein

She utters her thoughts, in a voice so much melodic
Yet bitter are her words, from someone so angelic
"Crushed over and over, I don't seem to have a heart"
Hearing that made me cry, and slowly tear me apart

Her pain seeped to my bones, and gave a cold fright
All I wanted to do, was to take and hold her tight
To ease her mind of fear, and soothe her heart of pain
Even shield as well, from the heavy torrents of rain

Stay with her I will, and dry each falling tear
Company through the storm, until the skies are clear
Giving unbridled joy, even at the expense of mine
To always make her happy, until the end of time

Raise her spirits high, with every laugh and cheer
Keeping her safe all night, I promise to be near
Staying by her side, to watch her fall asleep
To ensure lovely dreams, and happy thoughts to keep

I'll shower her with love, so even through the night
Alone in her thoughts, she'll always be alright
Even when I'm far, there is nothing she would fear
She would only call my name, and I'll come running here

Heal her heart I would, giving all of my love
Comfort her I will, under the heavens above
Giving her the joy, she so rightfully deserves
Here I am a knight, to the princess he serves.

I'll Never Touch & Go

Ok so what happened today... what happened actually is that due to the transport strike here, I wasn't able to go to work. Which also meant that I just stayed home here and faced this computer for the rest of the day (what a life!)... A few hours of sleep and some delicious mango pie hit the spot and made my day a bit bearable

Also, the person closest to my heart faced some dilemma that was heart shattering from her if she made a decision one way or the other. I tried to give advice but somehow it didn't help much. I only wish she is feeling better right now. *Sigh*, I also hope that installing some stuff into her PDA phone would bring a smile into her face even for a while.

As for the weather here, it soooo hot that I'm gonna die if I don't get a bath twice or more daily. Man, its really hot in here... Whew...

Oh well, its a tuesday... I hope things could get better...

Anyway, here is a song that was played during the 70's. It's called Touch and go by Rupert Holmes. I doubt that you remember or even recognize this song. I'm kinda dedicating this song to my special friend... "I'll Never Touch and Go".


Nobody said that
Life is always fair
Sometimes it clips your wings
While you're in mid-air
But there's a thread
Between your life and mine
And when you're losin' hope
This rope won't unwind

Hold on tight
'Cause life is touch and go
It's sink and swim
But never down
If you're out on a limb
I'll get the call
To break your fall
I'll never leave you
Even when life
Is touch and go
Or hit and run
We'll never break
If we take it as one
I'm here to stay,
I pray you know
I'll never touch
I'll never touch and go

Someday you'll find
There's nothin' in the night
That wasn't there before
You turned out the light
Straight from your mind
The monster 'neath your bed
The voices in the hall
They're all in your head

Hold on tight
'Cause life is touch and go
It's sink or swim
But never down
If you're out on a limb
I'll get the call
To break your fall
I'll never leave you
Even when life
Is touch and go
Or hit and run
We'll never break
If we take it as one
I'm here to stay,
I pray you know
I'll never touch
I'll never touch and go

When you feel lost
You're only spun around
Tumbled and tossed
But never run around
Life is a townful
Of strangers at best
I'll help you home
God help the rest

Hold on tight
'Cause life is touch and go
It's sink or swim
But never down
If you're out on a limb
I'll get the call
To break your fall
I'll never leave you
Even when life
Is touch and go
Or hit and run
We'll never break
If we take it as one
I'm here to stay,
I pray you know
I'll never touch
I'll never touch and go

Life is touch and go
It's sink or swim
But never doubt
If you're out on a limb
I'll get the call...

Aishiteiru, Tomo yo... (I love you, my friend)

I seem to be overflowing with words today... *sigh*

I used to look at life before
An empty shell, a barren core
All had changed when you came my way
Now I thank the fates for every day

A cherished friend I have come to find
I wish our ties would always bind
You were my haven, my sanctuary
When I find myself in such a quarry

You were always there for me
When things got rough and hard to be
You gave a smile, and gave a cheer
You soothed my mind and calmed my fears

But times have changed unlike before
I don't see you as a friend anymore
When you flash that charming smile
My heart stops beating for a while

But what I feel, I could not tell
Fearing it would bring death's knell
Shaking the foundations from up above
By uttering the words of my love

And if you don't feel the same way
It would bring my darkest day
Would rather hide and stay still
Instead of saying what I feel

But I pledge and promise everyday
That forever happy you shall stay
A home you'll have within my arms
I will always keep you safe and warm

If your heart should find someone
And you decide that he's the one
Fear not, I won't leave you away
I promise I will not go astray

If I see you running in tears
I'll be here to calm your fears
Fix and heal your broken heart
Will never leave you and depart

I love you much my cherished friend
Always love you till the very end
I may not say what's in my heart
But promise never to be apart

Borrowed Heaven (A poem)

A simple glance is all that I need
For this hungry heart of mine to feed
A single thought of you at home
And I'll never really feel alone

A gentle touch onto my arm
Would clear my mind and give me calm
A soft word upon your lips
Will lull me into a blissful sleep

Your presence alone by me side
Soars my heart than the highest tide
To hear your ever-infectious laughter
Would bring me joy ever after

Melodious voice, sets me to a trance
Enticing me to sing and dance
Lithe body moves so gracefully
Makes my heart beat so eratically

I never felt so much joy
Than in a toy store, an excited boy
When I am with you I'm never lonely
I never been so much this happy

A Wonderful dream this must be
For all these things an impossibility
All these things are in my fantasy
But fate it seems, 'tis not my destiny

Yet my heart would sigh and feel so blue
Wishing all of this would come true
This joy of mine when I'm with you
Would Remember it through and through

But just for awhile, even for a time
It was like you were truly mine
For this is never meant for me
Borrowed heaven this must be

The Promise of Loving You... a poem

Just had to repost some of my stuff... sentimental mode again :)

Dare I might hope, that you could love me
Yet doubt settles in, like the earth swallowing me
All I can offer you is my soul and my heart
Excruciating pain I feel, when we are far apart

Unworthy of you, I think myself lowly
Yet wishing to make you happy, swear to all that's holy
Don't know much, only that I know I love you
These words from my lips, from my heart that is true

Promise I cannot make, of the moon and the stars
For all I can give, myself to you at all hours
All I want to bring, a simple smile on your lips
Laughter in your eyes, joyful heart that skips

All your needs and wants, your wishes my command
I would be eternally happy, if I could have your hand
Take you to a happy place, far far away
Here in my heart, where you will always stay

Riches I don't have, nor I have the powers
But certainly you shall have, my devotion for hours
Simple man am I, and I have simple dreams
Only your happiness, matters to me it seems

Yet I cannot ask, what you cannot give
Not having your love, is too painful to live
Yet the sadness and the sorrow, I will never show
The dark void in my soul, you not need to know

Cause what matters most, the sparkle in your eyes
The laughter in your voice, the passionate happy cries
That graceful lively gait, that contented smile
Would ease the pain of sadness, even for a while

This love I give to you, I give thee true and pure
Maybe in your loneliness, I would be your cure
Though the emptiness in my heart, you may chose not to fill
This I promise you, Truly I will love you still...

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Solace (a poem)

Did this when I was tired from everything... you know what, after doing this, I'm not tired anymore :)

A hectic life from day to day
Wishing to rest my head and lay
A lot of thoughts rest upon my mind
I seek my peace, solace I find

Those comely eyes that give me calm
For my wounded soul, a healer's balm
That soothing voice clears my thoughts
And lifts me into heaven's lofts

Whenever I feel so down and blue
Her presence alone gives my life hue
To fight battles of everyday strife
She gives me joy, she gives me life

When I look at her beautiful face
My mind is moved to happy place
And forget the troubles of everyday
Beside her I intend to stay

As the day is done and my body spent
With a patient ear, she hears me vent
The troubles of my weary mind
Truly in her, solace I find

Lucky am I, to have one such as she
By her side, I always want to be
Now and forever I will always be secure
For all the pains I have, she is my cure

Join me at friendster... ulet

Knight of Solitude

The Resignation...

Things aren't always what they seem... Last year I entered into a promising company, a food and beverage company... A corporation... things have been looking good... too good. Oh well, some things have come to an end. I just filed my resignation and I am slated to work here until the 30th of April. But hey, for every ending there is a new beginning. And I am moving again, new job, here in makati, 15 minutes away from home. I just hope things would be better from now on.

Later Peeps... Just wanted to blow off steam I guess :)

Whatta week...

Lately I have been putting poems, pictures and wacky stuff around the net, so I haven't put in much of what happened last week... it has been a rollercoaster ride.

With regards to work, well suddenly we had to review everything from the start, ironed out the designs as well all loose ends that may come later... but you know what, this should have been done a long time ago... we wasted a whole month doing something that has not been finalized nor confirmed, what kind of product would you have... Jeez... What they were trying to do is to create an ERP system (Enterprise Resource Planning), like SAP or Oracle, in a span of less than 3 months, design included... I mean, what kind of development is that, especially if it is from scratch... I already talked to my boss... I kinda got a better offer from another company... so why not go for it... :)

About family, well my sister is due to come home from warrington, england on the 27th of may, in order to celebrate her 40th birthday here in manila with her husband, I think the last time I saw my sister was hmmmm.... Early 2003... I kinda miss her (not to mention her neat-freakish ways... hehehehehe)... but hey I haven't seen her for a long time... I wonder when will they have those little blond-haired, blue-eyed kids... we're waiting.

As for "her", well we had an up-and-down week... well me and my green eyed monster acted up again... well she understood that... but I think she got pissed at me because she was always straightforward and me putting my foot in my mouth.... oh well, at least things got better :)

Kinda stressful week dontcha think... well I hope it would get better soon... the weather here is acting like crazy... scortching hot in the morning... brezzy cold in the evenings... and its summer... Oh well

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Abyss... a poem

This is what happened last thursday... when I get too emotional for my own good hahahaha...

I never felt great anguish such as this
I feel like Im falling into an abyss
A searing pain rips through my heart
My very soul being torn apart

Eternal darkness I am kept
Stranded, alone and left
Torrent of tears falls from my eyes
Upon my lips, a heavy sigh

Here I stand upon the rain
Dwelling, Enduring utmost pain
Groping in the dark like a man gone blind
Sadness is all I could find

Im in a deep dark bottomless hole
Struggling for one who can make me whole
Here I stand, all alone
Contemplating my sins I should atone

Here I sit still and lie in wait
Maybe in time and a bit of faith
That I could climb out of this dark abyss
And finally find my one true peace

Boy Band!!!!

Second Shot!!! Why do we even pose like this hahahahahahaha.....

Lunkhead...

Done something stupid last night... I assumed. And now I fear that I did something that would change my world... Put foot in mouth, add ketchup while you are doing it. Perfect procedure for disaster. Then follow it up with plenty of foot-in-mouth statements. Great, really great. Now what do I do? I am on her list of least favorite people

Come to think of it, I looked at my horoscope, and it says "bad day today"

Just wanna apologize for being an assuming, stupid lunkhead...

Am really Sorry...

Wish...

What can I say... I'm in a sentimental mood today.... here is a poem I just wrote around hmmm... an hour ago I guess :) Enjoy... heh heh

If one wish should given to me
Anything I ask, it should come to be
One thought would come to my mind
Our ties I wish would forever bind

Not all the riches of the world
Or the great powers unfurled
Would make me happy as can be
If you would always be beside me

All the wisdom and strength untold
Behest unto me till I am old
Worthless would be everything
Because without you I am nothing

Power and Dominion over men
Or reach my center, my goals, my zen
What would these things mean to me
If my heart isn't truly with thee

The world within the reach of my hand
Or control of the time's sand
I would decide rather not to gain
If I should feel alone again

My heart is truly on fire
For there is only one thing I desire
I wish with me for you to stay
More than forever and a day

If I was granted one wish
I would rather not choose to be rich
I would rather spend eternity
In the presence of your beauty

But making wishes are for fools
Our minds' imaginary tools
Yet how happy I could be at last
If that one wish would come to pass

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Later.....

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My week...

Oh well.. here I go with my stream of conciousness again... type anything that comes into my mind... well it is almost lunchtime but my lunch is still far from done, so I decided to put my thoughts into writing (whatever thoughts that is heh heh). So what should talk about hmmmmm...

Well with the person who occupies a very big chunk of my heart. Things have been good. Well I am happy that I get to spend a lot of time with her, but most of the time we all talk about someone else... I wonder if she thinks of me that much too... wishful thinking on my part, hahahaha. She is somebody special to me and I want to see her always happy. And would do anything to ensure that. Promise made, promise to be kept...

As of work? Work is a killer... I dunno what got into the head of my hare-brained boss to make us develop a very extensive and large application in a span of less than 3 months (design included). I mean.... WHAT THE HELL IS HE THINKING!?!? Oh well... sometimes I am tempted to look for work elsewhere, where I can be rewarded with the extra effort I do.... OTy can sometimes dampen your morale and the motivation to work. Might really look for the greener grass :)

I also have been thinking if the Teri Shiavo case... maybe it is time to draw my own will and testament, that if something happens to me, that there would be a list to do when I am incapacitated. Frankly, when I get into a long coma, I want the plug to be pulled. And I wan't to be created... Come to think of it, this post is already a document of what to do just in case anything happens :)

Time for lunch now... Till then...
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Here is what I'm worth

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Inuman na!

Have nothing to do for the moment.... so I decided to make fun of myself....

Lets Drink to That!!!

Am I good or what? Hehehehehe

The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Low
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

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